Exams are finally over. Again, I foresee another round of disappointment upon receiving my results. I am crossing my fingers and pray hard that I can score at least 50marks in order to proceed to other papers. I dread studying, especially preparing for this professional examination.

Planned a list of post exams activities to be completed before I fly to KCH with dear dear. Completed most of my To-Do List. Next few days will be occupied with meet-ups! I miss those people whom I am going to meet. So many things to catch up with them. The next few days will be very eventful. Haha...

I am going to apply for a new job. Wish me all the best to be employed by that particular company. =)

12 more days to go!

Seriously in need to catch a breather. Dying of exhaustion soon. This company does not offer a single study leave or exam leave. Stressed to the max with only 4 days of leave. I can feel the tension on my brain, shoulders and neck. Actually, every single part of me is break down anytime.

Stressed! Stressed! Stressed! I AM DESPERATE FOR A DE-STRESSING SESSION!

I may start hunting for jobs after my exams. No morale to work. Furthermore, the thought of my employment contract makes me super sian. Which sector should I join? I will have to make a decision after my exams. I guess it would either be tax or audit. Going to give other sectors a chance instead of coping myself with only payments, accruals and etc. I should venture other sectors since I am still considered young. Haha...

Fatigue, lethargy, restless, listless, exhaustion got over me this week. I am so worn out. The devil within me always claims victory thus leading to no revisions done for the whole of this week.

I can't help sinking into self-sympathy. Recurring questions keep appearing in my weary brain. Even mummy finds me nag like an old lady. But I simply can't stop doing that! I must pull myself out of this monthly shit and get down to what I am supposed to do.

I finally got my hands on the classy wallet I placed my eyes on! Ta da!!! Retail therapy does help to soothe my stress level. :]

Why is 93.3 playing all the sad songs? It made me cry even harder. Crying myself to sleep.

I have been burning midnight oil every day. Sacrificing my very deprived beauty sleep to study till 2 or 3am. Really trying very hard to revise through my studies so that I can practice past year exam questions or memorise those theories. Argh! The evidence of these late nights is reflected on my face. Hate it. Contemplating whether to go for facial this Saturday. Should I or should I not??? The opportunity cost would of course be my revision time and probably more pimples will pop over the month till my next appointment.

Lesson on coming Sunday. Super sian. Next week onwards is my super duper busy week; company closing, dad's accounts, revision lessons and actual lessons ongoing. When can I ever get out of this hectic life? I yearn to sleep, shop and do whatever I please during my free time. But where can I dig some free time out? I dread this kind of life. I must pass my papers as soon as possible else I will die of exhaustion one day.

PS: 64 more days. =)

For no reason, I felt so emo all of a sudden. I yearn for his hugs. Miss him so much. Probably due to the monthly women thingy, causing my hormones to go haywire and thus this sudden intense mood swing. Or maybe I am too stressed with my revision. -shrugs-

Sometimes I thought I was dreaming. Having such a great boyfriend does give me insecurity at times. I will often get paranoid and worried that he will leave me one day. If this is a dream, let me be the sleeping beauty in the fairy tale and sleep till he appears and wakes me up. No matter what, I will always treasure my times spent with him. I will always remind myself to treasure everyone around me, though I really do not know how to go around doing it.

ELIZABETH!! STOP BEING SO EMO! GET DOWN TO YOUR STUDIES AND STOP WASTING YOUR PRECIOUS TIME!

PS: 70days to 31.12.09!!! Dear dear! I am looking forward to this day. Hehe...

Happy 32months to my dearest aka little boy aka little Michelin aka 跳飞机. THANK YOU for staying by my side whenever I need you. Muacks! Dedicate the song title to you only cos the lyrics don't suit us. But I remember you mentioning that this is a nice song. Haha... =P

言承旭- thank you

看着那张你我昨日的照片
我想还在爱着的从前
知道你还难过知道你还爱我
知道是我的错是我的错

我承认我对你不好
你为我付出的一切我都知道
知道你受的苦真太多
怎么值得你这样做
怎么值得你还在等我

谢谢你还在爱我
我无法再找到另一个
不可能再有人比你了解我
谢谢你让我爱过
我相信总会有一天有一天我会看见
别人笑我洒脱
其实我没有那么的洒脱

我承认我对你不好
你为我付出的一切我都知道
知道你受的苦真太多
怎么值得你这样做
怎么值得让你还在等着我
谢谢你还在爱我
我无法再找到另一个
不可能再有人比你了解我
谢谢你让我爱过
我相信总会有一天有一天我会看见
别人笑我洒脱
其实我没有那么的洒脱

我无法再找到另一个
不可能再有人比你了解我
谢谢你让我爱过
我相信总会有一天有一天我会看见
别人笑我洒脱
其实我没有那么的洒脱

I am SOOOOOOO deprived
- of sleep
- of adequate time to study
- of money
- of leisure
- of time to meet up with my dear friends
- of higher salary
- of exercise
and the list goes on and on....

Time is my most crucial element. I seriously do wish there is at least 48hours a day. But this is a wish that will never ever be granted. This is when time management comes in the picture. I am trying hard to plan my time. Less than 2 months to my exams. I have registered for 3 papers but I only intend to take 2. Most probably taking MC for one of the papers.

I am crossing my fingers for those 2 papers. Hope everything goes smoothly for me this time round. I am really tired of studying, working and managing family matters every month. I need a getaway and revamp this life! Looking forward to 31 December 2009 - the last day of 2009 and hopefully a perfect brand new 2010 for me.

Sometimes I do wonder "Who am I living for?" Never ending housework to do. Start of every month, I have to do my dad's accounts. I have my fair share of priorities. But it seems like I don't have adequate time for myself. I need to study too. I am also working. I do feel stressed having to juggle so many things. I know women are good at multi-tasking and wearing many hats at different point of time. However, this is too much for me to handle with only 24 hours daily! I feel so suffocated. Count your blessings if you do not have to many responsibilities.

Tomorrow, I will have 2 grandmaSS living under the same roof. I can't imagine what will happen at home or me. Other than having a great bf, I felt the other aspects of my life are in a total mess.

Recently, one of my finance colleagues left our company for a better offer. Company freeze head count so her work load was divided among the 2 of us. The past 1 month was my busiest period in office. On certain period, I was so busy that I find it hard to breathe. I have deadlines to meet every week. Boss keeps msn-ing me asking me for recon. Hello! Payments are more important or your supplier recon? Vendors will call and chase me for payments and not bug you for supplier reconciliations. Please weigh the priorities before asking me for recon. If Japan headquarters need it, recon it yourself.

Wage freeze too thus can't bargain for higher pay when I am doing so much more than when I first joined the company. I want to finish my studies asap and look out for better jobs. Pathetic pay with tremendous things to do. How can I save money with my take home salary? I remember the first time when I got my salary, I gave my parents each $150. My mom said "Huh. You give us so little arh." Haiz... I really don't understand why nothing nice comes out of my mom's mouth.

People can pass their exams smoothly but why can't I? The decision to take up ACCA is utterly wrong. I regretted it. But I am already halfway through this and there is no way and too late for me to turn back. I just have to continue this path and hope it will reap me with good jobs in future. When people know what cert I am taking, they will go "WOW, it is not easy" or "WOW, it is a very recognised certificate." So what if ACCA is widely recognised? I don't give a damn especially when so many people are taking it even old and uncivilised aunties. It is just a matter of time graduating with an ACCA certificate.

I thought of what THAT EX-CLASSMATE COMMENTED ABOUT ME 2 years ago. I still remember that whole sentence. I still feel indignant about it. The thought of that sentence still makes me furious. I hope that you will keep failing your ACCA exams and never graduate. Let this be my birthday greetings to you every year.

You can say that I am childish, immature or vengeful. I don't care. For this case, I will not forgive neither will I forget.

I am crossing my fingers. I am afraid to see my results later. Haiz... That is what happens when I did not put in adequate effort for exams. No use crying over spilled milk now. I can only pray that I pass at least 1 paper and I can move on to take more papers. I cant wait to complete ACCA, hoping to count down to exam-less days. :(

Give me luck k... Thanks!

Procrastinating is what I ace at. I had been putting off my plan to swim. Finally, I managed to go according with what I planned on Saturday. YEAH! I went swimming with dear dear after we send uncle to the airport around 7+ on Saturday morning. Saturday mornings are reserved specially for my beauty sleep but I woke up earlier than my working days. Haha...

I would conclude Saturday is a day well spent doing quality stuffs. Swam, did part of the accounts and went to buy sofa bed at night. Thanks dear dear for spending the whole Saturday with me. Muacks.

I seriously think I am getting addicted to swimming. But I would still reject the idea of swimming under the hot sun at the expense of me getting tan. I don't want! Haha... I need to exercise more to regain higher metabolism rate. It has been declining at a tremendously fast rate that's why the fats on my body are increasing at a tremendously fast rate! Help! Hope swimming and using the zapping machine and apply slimming lotions in tandem can let me regain my previous figure (though I don't have a really svelte figure previously).

I have so many things to blog but I have to find time to sit down to write about it. Time out for lunch break. Ciaoz...

I am boiling inside at this very moment. Accounts were passed to her weeks ago. I did all the arrangements myself and counted the bulk of the accounts all by myself without the help of anyone. After that, I rushed most of the accounts overnight despite having to work on the next day.

I passed those "Not-so-urgent" companies to let her do. To date, nothing much has been accomplished. Last night, when I was about to sleep, I called her and reminded her to complete those remaining ones otherwise payments would be delayed by those companies. Again, nothing has been done!

Just when I was about to hang up the call with dear dear and go to bed, she came in and asked me to help her do the accounts. I was really pissed! I DID MY PART AND SO SHOULD YOU! DON'T COME TELLING ME YOU PITY DADDY FOR WORKING SO HARD AND BLAH AND NO ACTIONS BEING DONE ON YOUR PART. PLEASE DO SOMETHING CONSTRUCTIVE AND STOP SAYING ALL THESE WHEN NOTHING HAS BEEN DONE. YOU ARE AN EXPERT WHEN IT COMES TO BUYING EXPENSIVE STUFFS AND NOTHING ELSE. IS THAT WHAT YOU ARE ON EARTH FOR? PLEASE THINK THOROUGHLY WHAT YOU HAD BEEN DOING FOR THE PAST 19YEARS OF YOUR LIFE. YOU ARE NOT CONTRIBUTING MUCH IN THIS FAMILY. EVERYONE HAS TO PLAY A PART TO KEEP THE FAMILY CLOSE AND BONDED. WHAT HAVE YOU DONE OTHER THAN WASTING MONEY, SPENDING MONEY AND SITTING IN FRONT OF THE COMPUTER?

IT IS NOT THAT WE ALWAYS WANT TO NAG AND SCOLD YOU. KINDLY REFLECT ON YOUR ACTIONS AND WHAT YOU HAD BEEN DOING. MONEY DON'T DROP FROM THE SKY FOR YOU. YOU HAVE TO WORK FOR IT. EVERYTHING ON EARTH COMES WITH A PRICE TAG BE IT INTRINSIC OR EXTRINSIC, MEASURABLE OR NON MEASURABLE. SO DOES YOUR "I-YEARN-TO-HAVE-CARS". YOU HAVE TO SAVE N SCRIMP FOR IT IF YOU WANT. DADDY CANT PROVIDE YOU FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE.

GO TAKE A FEW "PRECIOUS" HOURS OF YOUR LIFE AND THINK THROUGH.